So at the start of middle school (this year), I've gone through a LOT of
changes. The two main ones are:
1. Moved from the house I've been living in for practically all my life
2. Started middle school at a different school to my five best friends from Year
Five and Six.
So basically, I'm having trouble adjusting. With school: I can't get along with
the people there; I don't WANT to get along with the people there and, though I
have a group of 'friends' there, I can't relate much to any of them. I know
that, in time, we will probably become closer but I don't want to be close to them.
I want to continue the friendship with my old best friends. We have sleepovers
during the holidays and talk a little online but I can sense the gap forming
between us. The thing is: I'm not ready to move on and make new best
friends.
The house we moved to is big and empty. I'm isolated from my old friends since
the place I moved to is so far from my old home and I've no companions other
than my five-year-old brother.
My mum says for me to get off the internet but I can't since it's the only way I
can even talk to my old friends.
Everyone says to give it time but what do you do during that time?
Sometimes I just want everything to reset and to have never chosen to go to the
school I chose. It just hurts so much to be stuck on one side of a cliff and
unable to reach the other side. I've thought about suicide once two years ago
when I was enduring the same sadness as I am now. I know it's stupid and I don't
think I'll have the guts to try but, sometimes, it just hurts so much.
I don't know how anyone can help but perhaps telling me a little about how you
overcame a problem like this? I know I'm not alone with this problem so hearing
about your stories might help.
Oh this is one of those American problems but you aren't American.
Well I moved to High School in Victoria which is in the city and i was the only
one that came from my area.
So there I was, almost a complete stranger among the people that went there.
Well I hardly expected to make any kind of friends at all but hey! It turned out
fine. I threw jokes here and there, play sports and I got a heap of new
friends.
Now I went to an old friend's reunion/sleepover. I can still remember really
really wanting to go to that school but when i looked at them, I felt stupid
wanting to hang out with them in the first place. So I hung a facade on my face
and shook my head sadly.
Now that I look at it, I want to move even closer to my school and I feel ready
to move out. yes it seems taht you have encoutnered suicide as well and weighed
out the options. Good work and you are not alone there as well. Ive experience
worse than you trust me. I think ive been to Hell and back and Hell changes
people. It hardens them.
So in this plight, I ask you to grow strong and hope for the future, however
frail it might be. Most of my hopes are frail but they are strengthened by
persistence and the people around me.
During that time I must ask you to at
least give making friends a try. Look at me, I'm at an all guy's school and I
make friends just fine. The guys here are cool and errr ganglike lols.
Well I think that the best way is to compare hobbies or something.
hey no need to thank me, Im married...
Nah joking.
Well Merry Christmas agian
Sukumei
So at the start of middle school (this year), I've gone through a LOT of changes. The two main ones are:
1. Moved from the house I've been living in for practically all my life
2. Started middle school at a different school to my five best friends from Year Five and Six.
So basically, I'm having trouble adjusting. With school: I can't get along with the people there; I don't WANT to get along with the people there and, though I have a group of 'friends' there, I can't relate much to any of them. I know that, in time, we will probably become closer but I don't want to be close to them.
I want to continue the friendship with my old best friends. We have sleepovers during the holidays and talk a little online but I can sense the gap forming between us. The thing is: I'm not ready to move on and make new best friends.
The house we moved to is big and empty. I'm isolated from my old friends since the place I moved to is so far from my old home and I've no companions other than my five-year-old brother.
My mum says for me to get off the internet but I can't since it's the only way I can even talk to my old friends. Everyone says to give it time but what do you do during that time?
Sometimes I just want everything to reset and to have never chosen to go to the school I chose. It just hurts so much to be stuck on one side of a cliff and unable to reach the other side. I've thought about suicide once two years ago when I was enduring the same sadness as I am now. I know it's stupid and I don't think I'll have the guts to try but, sometimes, it just hurts so much.
I don't know how anyone can help but perhaps telling me a little about how you overcame a problem like this? I know I'm not alone with this problem so hearing about your stories might help.
Oh this is one of those American problems but you aren't American.
Well I moved to High School in Victoria which is in the city and i was the only one that came from my area.
So there I was, almost a complete stranger among the people that went there. Well I hardly expected to make any kind of friends at all but hey! It turned out fine. I threw jokes here and there, play sports and I got a heap of new friends.
Now I went to an old friend's reunion/sleepover. I can still remember really really wanting to go to that school but when i looked at them, I felt stupid wanting to hang out with them in the first place. So I hung a facade on my face and shook my head sadly.
Now that I look at it, I want to move even closer to my school and I feel ready to move out. yes it seems taht you have encoutnered suicide as well and weighed out the options. Good work and you are not alone there as well. Ive experience worse than you trust me. I think ive been to Hell and back and Hell changes people. It hardens them.
So in this plight, I ask you to grow strong and hope for the future, however frail it might be. Most of my hopes are frail but they are strengthened by persistence and the people around me.
During that time I must ask you to at least give making friends a try. Look at me, I'm at an all guy's school and I make friends just fine. The guys here are cool and errr ganglike lols.
Well I think that the best way is to compare hobbies or something.
hey no need to thank me, Im married...
Nah joking.
Well Merry Christmas agian
Sukumei