A while back, someone asked me who and where I was from. Maybe it was often enough I have heard the words come out off my mouth I had to change it. Here is another just fading step toward that light I see in the dark. I'm a human being like you are, with feelings and emotions, needs and desires, problems and headaches...All the same you have had or will go through. We live differently, we may have things in common but would you want to know more about me?
I give enough for a glimpse, enough maybe to tease or to appeal to others. This will be your decision. This is your life after all. I reserve the right to keep mine close and to unravel it for those I cherish in soul and heart.
Since a long while I have always thought the best way to pull out my emotions to be in writing or in playing with graphics. I still do. I still am that little child stuck in a man who had been seemingly lost in a sea of nothingness. There is joy, I know, I lived it and maybe one day again I will truly smile and sigh at the freedom it would bring to my heart.
So what is it now? A rebel? A goth? An angry man? Yes and no...I don't like tags or social definition of who I am. I am who you see and how you feel about me. It's a question of taking time to see what may be shared and what may be left in the dark for now.
Writing I tell you my dear...I call you dear since you still read this now. I feel a certain nod, a certain curiousity as of who had written this...Would you care to know really or is it simple curiousity?
Spare me I say. I don't want to waste your time and yet, another voice in the night...Even as words flashing in
front of my eyes will be enough to know...I am not alone.
Because...You were never alone to begin with.
Now...Really, what do I look like? Am I gorgeous? Am I ugly?
Is it how you define another being? By the outside look? Well, just to ease your mind, I've never known anyone who called me ugly. I have my own charms I guess (much like you do) and maybe it will suffice. Read on, See this, it is another aspect of my life being opened. Another chapter, read that? Leave this? Or maybe you have already started to wonder and to ask yourself...Is it really that worth your time?
SO I hope you will just accept me for who I am and not who you think I may be.
Ja neh!
