God is good, not evil. Have you ever read the poem (or was it a poem?) "Footprints in the Sand"?
Well, if you haven't, it goes like this:
I once had a dream and in that dream was God walking with me on the shore. And somewhere in the sky, we could see the events that have happened in my life. We walked while the events happened and it left two sets of footprints of course. But I noticed that when the sad events appeared, I only saw one set of footprints. Then I asked, "Lord, why is it that when my hardships was shown, there were only one set of footprints? Did you leave me?" But then, God replied, "No. I didn't leave you. In fact, I was carrying you."
-Anonymous
Well, sorry if it wasn't the exact same version you read because I don't have the copy right now. I kinda summarized it. ^_^ Oh well... it just goes like that. God helps us when we're down, we just don't know it because we dwell in our sadness instead of looking at the bright side... *sigh* well at least I answered my own problem... ^_^'