The topic for the essay was: How Do I see Myself as a Person?
(Remember, this is for an application form, so I need you guys to be harsh! :P)
The first time I read the topic for this essay, I thought, â?Ah, this would be a cinch.â? But it did not take long for me to realize how foolish that thought was. During the moments I spent pondering on the question of how I see myself as a person, I was able to fully grasp who I am, REALLY.
I realized that, like everyone else in the world, I am not the most perfect human being; neither am I the most beautiful (not that I thought I was before). I saw both the negative and positive side of myself, magnified by a thousand times. I found out what kind of person I am; that my friends and my family are the most important factors in my life. My love and loyalty to them runs so deep, that I cannot turn away from them, especially during the times that seem the bleakest. I surprise even myself, sometimes.
Despite the fact that we would constantly have disagreements, I choose to never abandon my friends. I have accepted them as who they are- each imperfection, every flaw. The same goes to my family, which does have its minor arguments at times. Thinking about these decisions and emotions have me reflecting on the capability of a person to love wholly- love which has proven itself to be beautiful, mysterious, and at the same time, deadly.
But, to be realistic, there are times when I just canâ?t seem to take it. I am a pessimistic and paranoid person; I get jealous, and angry; I get sad, and lonely. Sometimes, I prefer the company of my cat, or of no one at all, at that. Being surrounded all the time just doesnâ?t suite me; â?I need spaceâ? as they say. But donâ?t get me wrong, I do love my friends and family. Itâ?s just that, I need some time for myself, wherein I can just keep quiet, and listen to my own thoughts- without having to worry if my friend is comfortable with the said silence, and comfortable with me.
I know I am a good person; I know I am a good daughter; I know I am a good friend; and I know that I was not born this way. Neither is anyone else, for that fact. I am who I am because of each and every decision, both big and small, that I made and am making. I am me because this is who I choose to be. But I talk and act the way I do becauseâ?¦ because this is what is expected of me. And I am willing to be this way- to sacrifice myself, as long as those whom I love and cherish are happy.
Yep, that's me: the Drama Queen. And I wouldnâ?t want it any other way.
merged: 11-13-2005 ~ 10:01pm
The essay was supposed to be 3-5 paragraphs long only. Do you think I should take out the last line ("yep,
that's me...), or never mind? Cuz I think it can count as another paragrapch, yes?