Ok,so recently I broke up with my girl.For what reason? Well, it's kinda complicated and kinda dumb,but I'll get to that.I met her over the net(ooo,shocking) in this webgroup that I'm in( not MT) and we started out as friends till this one day she came out and told me how she felt about me and all,so we started dating.Cept she lives in another part o the country I live in (I live in the US by the way).SO anyway,we stayed together for about six months, until now where I'm have a whole lot of confusion inside of me and questioning some things about the people around me and myself.One of the things that came up was whether or not I would still be able to keep a relationship with the girl.Sure it wasn't a normal relationship,but I sent her stuff and she gave me her phone number so I could call her.Plus she was really,really friggin' hot (like Kasumi from DOA hot),ws kind of a tough girl,but what I liked most about her was her personality,which why I guess she cam out and told me how she felt and all.Back on track,I came to the realization that there was no way I could hold a relationship with her anymore for the simple fact that I couldn't BE with her or see her,even though she did send me pics of herself and her number(they were real,don't freak).I have no way I could go and visited her,not without a car,and it killed me not being out to see her.
With the realization of that,the amount of confusion massing inside of me,and the fact that I couldn't find anyone
to talk to about my problems,started to flood out into my emails,and had been building up till now.I finally came out
and told her this at the end of last week,but couldn't really explain myself to a point.I was finally able to at
the beginning of the week,where I flat out explained to her about my troubles though not fully coming out to her about
breaking up.Yesterday,I got another email from saying we could call it off if since she knew that's what I was
trying to say in the lst few emails I sent to her.I apologized like crazy saying that I didn't mean to casue her
any grief since she told me that she was mobbingaround the house all weekend.She also told me that I could ask wfor help
anytime I needed even though we broke up,and thought that was that.
I send her another email,one asking if she could help out of friend of mine.I had gotten an email from that friend o the
same day that we broke up,and she was lost an confused on the sitaution she was in,and asking from help,along with some
advice from my ex(she knows my friend too-dosen't like her though).I send that off thnking not much of it except
tryying to help my friend out,then I get another email with some smiteful stuff from my ex,mostly pretaining to me and
how she goes about a break up,and I send another back.Today,I get an email from my ex with the full force of smite and
hatred that could come from the girl.She gets the impression that I'm in love with my friend which ain't the
deal,and just starts flipping out,trashing my friend becasue she dosne't liek the gril because of something that
happened months ago on our webgroup.SO I sent another email back,explaining toher that wasn't the deal and how she
could act that way knowing that isn't the rason why I broke up with her and that it wa perosn problems that I
can't get solved.So I treid to apologize again,and sent the sucker.
SO right now,I in aton of friggin' stress abou all that has happened along with the mess that I already had on my plate.I have no idae what to,how to calm her down,or what I should probably have know,and what I need to do to fix my break up prblem.I need some advice on this,becasue I really don't want to lose her as a friend,but it's getting harder to keep that from happening.It would probably if youy all could tell me how you handled past break ups and the aftereffects that they caused.Btw,fogive my really long post,sry^-^;.
