Maybe i shouldnt have acted too happy to see him...
Sighs...i mean i really like this guy he's really cute and i just feel so comfortable around him..and love spending time with him..and since we live so far away from each other we can only see each other when we got time to spare or when he comes into town...so its been awhile since we last seen each other..so i was really missing him and thinking about him alot and wanting to see him if only if it was only for a few minutes...and guess what? i guess someone heard me or something..caz i spotted him in the crowd at that moment..which was kinda weird for me that i would know that hes that person im looking for and missing just by getting a glimpse of his hair...but just looking at him waiting for me across the street made my heart beat a little faster for a few seconds..and i guess i was so happy to see him that i sorta jumped into his arms and was really happy....but maybe i overdid it..you know by acting like i was really happy to see him and let him know that i really like him....so maybe i scared him off..caz i told him to txt or call me but he hasnt contacted me at all...i mean maybe im thinking too much into it or something..i mean he did say we were dating...but nothing too serious..or is he just having playing around with me..you know for fun? oh! tomorrow is his birthday and i wish i could spend the day with him...but i guess i cant make him do something he doesnt want to do...*ARGH!* Sometimes now i want to scream into a pillow and wish this confusion about how to date a guy right..and whats the right thing to do and things you shouldnt do..you know how liking someone is supposed to about happiness and joy..i think its also nerve wrecking..caz you hope you are doing things right and the other persons happy with you....