Just wanted to know if anyone else has felt they've greatly disappointed others
in their lives or themselves? I mean for me right now its disspaointing my
parents (father to be more specific). Now this isnt somtething small, like
getting a bad report card one semester, I mean one that haunts you nearly every
moment of ur waking life
Lately I wake up almost in a cold sweat
unable to go back to sleep thinking about the reverberations of the choices I've
made. I fear any time on my own, because that will inevitably lead me to think
about the future and the responsibilities that I have greatly failed. Yes you
say, its was your choice so deal with it...and I would gladly accept the
consequences....but i'm racked with guilt at how my actions will affect my
family.
My situation seems so overwhelming that no matter how hard I'll try (which i
intend to do) to slavage the future, the damage has already be done. There hasnt
been a day where I haven't broken down and cried even if just for a moment
(being a guy...thats saying something).
The only thing that keeps me together, is that sometime in the future (hopefully
soon) something beyond my control will help me get out of the hole I've dug
myself into, preventing me from disappointing my family
(P.S. Dont get me wrong I didn't do anything illegal, just something very naive
and foolish)
Actually, I think I disappoint my parents and they will probably be better off
without me... I suppose I can thank a mix of things like my education in a
catholic school that has given me my guilty conscience...
Even if I didn't turn really bad, but I feel that I could have done really
better if I have worked more...
but I guess I'm quite lucky in the way that they let me choose some important
things... even if I wasn't one to think a lot about it
Seeing your userpage... so is it about the choice of course at uni ? If it's so,
I don't think you should worry too much about it. It your decision, it's you
that have to choose what you'll do with your life. I think parents' job is to
learn their children to take care of themselves. Your father has probably
thought the course he had liked better was the safest way for you... but there
are many roads that can bring us to a good place, so cheer up.
-_- actually it's kind of hard to write if we don't know what's exactly your
problem. I think too it's better for you to have a conversation with your
family.
I have disappointed people, yes. Parents are an obvious one. But I don't regret
it, because I know that I can't please everyone, and that if I do try to please
everyone it'll only make me unhappy. And frankly, if it comes to attempting to
please everyone or trying to please myself in what I want to do in life (e.g.
University courses, jobs, whatever), I'd rather please myself. At least that way
I never disappoint myself, which is seriously bad, at least for me. I'd rather
be selfish than be disappointed in myself.
I use to live that way wanting to impress and be accepted by everyone but when I
finally grew up and got away from that kind of crap I finally realized that the
only people that are worth impressing are my friends and family and everything
else is just not important. I look back on the life I was forced to live and the
life that I have now and I thank God and the lesser gods that I do not live that
life anymore nor do I have that frame of mind but there are some days when I
can't help but regress when the humans do something that blows my tolerance of
them strait to hell and I go back to my adolescent frame of mind. To come out of
it I simply watch my Anime or read my Manga then it's all smooth sailing from
there.
Sure I've disappointed others just as I've had others disappoint me. Either way,
I don't dwell on it for too long because it's counter-productive to do so. You
just have to keep on trying because sooner or later you won't disappoint others.
In other words: if at first you don't succede, try, try again. Sooner or later
it'll work itself out.
Just wanted to know if anyone else has felt they've greatly disappointed others in their lives or themselves? I mean for me right now its disspaointing my parents (father to be more specific). Now this isnt somtething small, like getting a bad report card one semester, I mean one that haunts you nearly every moment of ur waking life
Lately I wake up almost in a cold sweat
unable to go back to sleep thinking about the reverberations of the choices I've
made. I fear any time on my own, because that will inevitably lead me to think
about the future and the responsibilities that I have greatly failed. Yes you
say, its was your choice so deal with it...and I would gladly accept the
consequences....but i'm racked with guilt at how my actions will affect my
family.
My situation seems so overwhelming that no matter how hard I'll try (which i intend to do) to slavage the future, the damage has already be done. There hasnt been a day where I haven't broken down and cried even if just for a moment (being a guy...thats saying something).
The only thing that keeps me together, is that sometime in the future (hopefully soon) something beyond my control will help me get out of the hole I've dug myself into, preventing me from disappointing my family
(P.S. Dont get me wrong I didn't do anything illegal, just something very naive and foolish)
Try to move on.
Actually, I think I disappoint my parents and they will probably be better off without me... I suppose I can thank a mix of things like my education in a catholic school that has given me my guilty conscience...
Even if I didn't turn really bad, but I feel that I could have done really better if I have worked more...
but I guess I'm quite lucky in the way that they let me choose some important things... even if I wasn't one to think a lot about it
Seeing your userpage... so is it about the choice of course at uni ? If it's so, I don't think you should worry too much about it. It your decision, it's you that have to choose what you'll do with your life. I think parents' job is to learn their children to take care of themselves. Your father has probably thought the course he had liked better was the safest way for you... but there are many roads that can bring us to a good place, so cheer up.
-_- actually it's kind of hard to write if we don't know what's exactly your problem. I think too it's better for you to have a conversation with your family.
I have disappointed people, yes. Parents are an obvious one. But I don't regret it, because I know that I can't please everyone, and that if I do try to please everyone it'll only make me unhappy. And frankly, if it comes to attempting to please everyone or trying to please myself in what I want to do in life (e.g. University courses, jobs, whatever), I'd rather please myself. At least that way I never disappoint myself, which is seriously bad, at least for me. I'd rather be selfish than be disappointed in myself.
I use to live that way wanting to impress and be accepted by everyone but when I finally grew up and got away from that kind of crap I finally realized that the only people that are worth impressing are my friends and family and everything else is just not important. I look back on the life I was forced to live and the life that I have now and I thank God and the lesser gods that I do not live that life anymore nor do I have that frame of mind but there are some days when I can't help but regress when the humans do something that blows my tolerance of them strait to hell and I go back to my adolescent frame of mind. To come out of it I simply watch my Anime or read my Manga then it's all smooth sailing from there.
Sure I've disappointed others just as I've had others disappoint me. Either way, I don't dwell on it for too long because it's counter-productive to do so. You just have to keep on trying because sooner or later you won't disappoint others. In other words: if at first you don't succede, try, try again. Sooner or later it'll work itself out.