I have something to tell you that i cannot even tell my family and friends. I
hope that you have the spare space in your heart to listen to my sigh.
There is a girl in my class which had caught my attention since the first term.
However, at that time i thought that she was too perfect for me, so i decided to
forget her. Though, we began the second semester two months ago, i totally have
no feeling for her.
However, she showed somthing to mee that maybe i sensed it wrongly. She suddenly
began to sat next to my table, she even join our group for meal. Last time she
even sat in the same table with us. She even used my joke, (I used to use money
for a joke, such as He, if you want to borrow my pen, pay me 5 bucks) by
attacking me with that sentence when i borrowed her pen for signing the
attendance. She even asked me to eat together with her.
Well, it began last week when she asked me my MSN. I gave her my MSN without any
feeling or suspiciousness. Then we talked on the MSN that night. I apologize her
since i was late to online at MSN. Actually she wanted to ask me on how to
access the online journal, but she began it with a very strange question by
interviewing me what is my dream. Then she told me she wrote poetry, which means
she has the same hobby like me. Then i asked her to show it to me, she said it
was deep to understand since it is in chinese and i cannot read nor speak
chinese well. I said its ok just show it to me i will use the translator. Then i
said so i think your heart must be deeper than the ocean.
Suddenly she said she is flying, and jokes by asking her whether she was an
angel or a goddess since she can fly. When i jokes again by asking her to pay me
since i teach her how to access the online journal she said "I am very
poor, i cannot pay you, so what do you want?" Then she rectified it by
saying just kidding. Then i forgot i think she said something and pretend like i
was insulted, but actually i am not since i have my eye on her. She said she
will force me to forget it. Then i said "Are you going to hit my head so
that i forget everything?". And this is the beginning the seed of the
flower inside my heart began to bloom. She said "i do not think so i can
hit u heart. bcz i know i can not walk to u heart. how can i hit u
heart"
I thought she also has her eyes on me. When i asked her why she always sit alone
at school, she even said she always sit next to me (When she said that i just
realized it). Then i joke and flirted by saying "You know my heart is so
small, therefore only one person can be inside there. One day if you go into my
heart, i will close it so that you will be there forever." She said my
mouth is so sweet. Then she asked me for a help to choose a topic for the
thesis. She jokes by saying she want to share the suffering with me .
The day after, she asked me to help her on financial management assignment, then
i tried to help her. Then i flirted with her again by saying her photo on her
MSN is so beautiful but she said i am more beautiful weird rite? Then she asked
me what i did that day, i said i just finished making the slide and cut my hair.
I jokes by saying i cut my hair for her. She said thank you. I even flatter her
by saying her hairstyle for this term is so nice. She then even shared her
background and story about her parents and how she loved her mother very
much.
Then i flirted by saying i can read her personality through her photo, actually
i used a software. She said my analysis was 99.99999999999% correct. Then the
day after she praised me for my good presentation, and i said her presentation
must be good (Coz i was absent for her presentation turn). She said she was
always nervous when she has to present in front of many people. I said next time
you can practice in front of me first. I told her that another female friend
also prcatice in front of me before. Then she said i am her true friend, this is
the begining she hurt my heart, Then i tried to joke that i dont want to be her
friend, but her enemy instead.
Then the day after we had a break, she said she wanted to go to the campus to
submit her assignment, i said i think i will also need to go to campus since i
have to return a book and maybe we can meet there and help her to check her
assingment. Then i lost words, suddenly i dun have anything to say and she asked
me whether i am in the same group with her for the workshop or not. I said yes.
Then she said thank you very much for helping me a lot, she said what she can do
to return all to me is by treating me. Again she made another hole inside my
heart. I said no need to thanks, maybe someday later i will need her help. Then
she promised to teach me chinese, i said should i call her lao shi, she said no
need because we are friend. Another hole inside my heart.
Then we met and as always, i alwas jokes a lot when we were together, i bet she
always felt hurt in her stomach due to my lame jokes. She even sometimes tried
to pinch my thigh or punch my shoulder due to my lame jokes and teasing. She
then asked my age, i know i am 2 years younger than her, so i never want to tell
her, i said i am forty years old. She seems curious, but i didn;t want to tell
her.
Then the day after she didnt sat next to my table, she sat one table behind her
usual table. She didn;t ask me to eat together, at that time i already feel pain
in my heary so i also didn;t want to say anything to her. I just asked my group
in front of her to eat together. She then left the class and went home i think.
Then i just keep inside my mind that she just want to use me, because i always
do my assingment fast and i am good at finance.
What do you think? I think she just want to bully me or use me rite? Why her
sign is totally strange. Do you think that she has eyes on me or not? Why she is
so cruel by playing with my fragile heart. I was once been hurt by a girl
therefore i always be careful to choose a gf. But, now i have already been hurt
again. What will you do if you are me? Will you keep chasing after her of just
leave her?
Thank you very much for reading my damn long sigh. I cannot tell my best friend
about this because i know he sometimes cannot keep his mouth and moreover he is
also her good friend. So i can only talk this to you. I hope you have the
oinment to cure and prevent my heart to ache again.
Dear my friend,
I have something to tell you that i cannot even tell my family and friends. I hope that you have the spare space in your heart to listen to my sigh.
There is a girl in my class which had caught my attention since the first term. However, at that time i thought that she was too perfect for me, so i decided to forget her. Though, we began the second semester two months ago, i totally have no feeling for her.
However, she showed somthing to mee that maybe i sensed it wrongly. She suddenly began to sat next to my table, she even join our group for meal. Last time she even sat in the same table with us. She even used my joke, (I used to use money for a joke, such as He, if you want to borrow my pen, pay me 5 bucks) by attacking me with that sentence when i borrowed her pen for signing the attendance. She even asked me to eat together with her.
Well, it began last week when she asked me my MSN. I gave her my MSN without any feeling or suspiciousness. Then we talked on the MSN that night. I apologize her since i was late to online at MSN. Actually she wanted to ask me on how to access the online journal, but she began it with a very strange question by interviewing me what is my dream. Then she told me she wrote poetry, which means she has the same hobby like me. Then i asked her to show it to me, she said it was deep to understand since it is in chinese and i cannot read nor speak chinese well. I said its ok just show it to me i will use the translator. Then i said so i think your heart must be deeper than the ocean.
Suddenly she said she is flying, and jokes by asking her whether she was an angel or a goddess since she can fly. When i jokes again by asking her to pay me since i teach her how to access the online journal she said "I am very poor, i cannot pay you, so what do you want?" Then she rectified it by saying just kidding. Then i forgot i think she said something and pretend like i was insulted, but actually i am not since i have my eye on her. She said she will force me to forget it. Then i said "Are you going to hit my head so that i forget everything?". And this is the beginning the seed of the flower inside my heart began to bloom. She said "i do not think so i can hit u heart. bcz i know i can not walk to u heart. how can i hit u heart"
I thought she also has her eyes on me. When i asked her why she always sit alone at school, she even said she always sit next to me (When she said that i just realized it). Then i joke and flirted by saying "You know my heart is so small, therefore only one person can be inside there. One day if you go into my heart, i will close it so that you will be there forever." She said my mouth is so sweet. Then she asked me for a help to choose a topic for the thesis. She jokes by saying she want to share the suffering with me
.
The day after, she asked me to help her on financial management assignment, then i tried to help her. Then i flirted with her again by saying her photo on her MSN is so beautiful but she said i am more beautiful weird rite? Then she asked me what i did that day, i said i just finished making the slide and cut my hair. I jokes by saying i cut my hair for her. She said thank you. I even flatter her by saying her hairstyle for this term is so nice. She then even shared her background and story about her parents and how she loved her mother very much.
Then i flirted by saying i can read her personality through her photo, actually i used a software. She said my analysis was 99.99999999999% correct. Then the day after she praised me for my good presentation, and i said her presentation must be good (Coz i was absent for her presentation turn). She said she was always nervous when she has to present in front of many people. I said next time you can practice in front of me first. I told her that another female friend also prcatice in front of me before. Then she said i am her true friend, this is the begining she hurt my heart, Then i tried to joke that i dont want to be her friend, but her enemy instead.
Then the day after we had a break, she said she wanted to go to the campus to submit her assignment, i said i think i will also need to go to campus since i have to return a book and maybe we can meet there and help her to check her assingment. Then i lost words, suddenly i dun have anything to say and she asked me whether i am in the same group with her for the workshop or not. I said yes. Then she said thank you very much for helping me a lot, she said what she can do to return all to me is by treating me. Again she made another hole inside my heart. I said no need to thanks, maybe someday later i will need her help. Then she promised to teach me chinese, i said should i call her lao shi, she said no need because we are friend. Another hole inside my heart.
Then we met and as always, i alwas jokes a lot when we were together, i bet she always felt hurt in her stomach due to my lame jokes. She even sometimes tried to pinch my thigh or punch my shoulder due to my lame jokes and teasing. She then asked my age, i know i am 2 years younger than her, so i never want to tell her, i said i am forty years old. She seems curious, but i didn;t want to tell her.
Then the day after she didnt sat next to my table, she sat one table behind her usual table. She didn;t ask me to eat together, at that time i already feel pain in my heary so i also didn;t want to say anything to her. I just asked my group in front of her to eat together. She then left the class and went home i think. Then i just keep inside my mind that she just want to use me, because i always do my assingment fast and i am good at finance.
What do you think? I think she just want to bully me or use me rite? Why her sign is totally strange. Do you think that she has eyes on me or not? Why she is so cruel by playing with my fragile heart. I was once been hurt by a girl therefore i always be careful to choose a gf. But, now i have already been hurt again. What will you do if you are me? Will you keep chasing after her of just leave her?
Thank you very much for reading my damn long sigh. I cannot tell my best friend about this because i know he sometimes cannot keep his mouth and moreover he is also her good friend. So i can only talk this to you. I hope you have the oinment to cure and prevent my heart to ache again.
Kind Regards,
Tree Without Leaf
be patient and be honest with her