I don't know how to start this, but.. Well, I just start with whatever is in my head right now..
Well, u see.. I've just start dating my bf for.. um.. half a year and.. he says he wanted me to meet his family..
I'm really happy to hear that, cause at least it shows that he care about our relationship but then again.. I
don't know why but I'm scare.. so I decline him.. says I'm nt ready yet...
I know he's a little dissappointed, but.. I just can't help it.. I wanted to go.. really, but.. something's holding me back.. So.. and again.. he asked me if I could show up for his relative's birthday party together with him this coming weekend.. I asked him to give me sometime to think about it..
My boy never did force it onto me, I really appreciate that.. but I know I'm not doing this good..
I don't want to dissappoint him again yet I don't want to force myself in.. so here I am, still wondering
around.. whether or not should I attend that party..?
I 've done nothing wrong, but I just don't know what and why am I scare of ..
I mean they're all very nice.. still.. I don't know..
You know.. if I'm just his normal friend, I'd shop or dine with his other members anytime anywhere,
but when I come to think of that I'm his GIRL, I get a bit.. shaken up..
I still remember there's ONCE I dine with him at his house, my hands trembles like s**t.. My heart beats so fast..
I could hardly breathe.. I can hardly talk normal.. so I just stay quiet.. I know.. I'm useless.. but.. Sigh..
What's wrong with me..?